|By Timothy Falk||Wednesday, 2 Jan 2008|
I thought really hard about this. I’m thinking I’m going to go with the 7 biggest events of my year, be they uplifting or heartbreaking, and the songs that go along with them. Each with a brief explanation of them. Some of this was pretty wrenching for me, but if I being able to get the bad out with the good is almost like a sense of closure for me. So, without further ado, Tym Falk’s highest and lowest of 2007.
Runner-up (Low) – Any time I had to listen to Amy Winehouse.
7. Wrestlemania (High)
I finally achieved a life long dream of mine this year. I finally got myself to Wrestlemania. Since I was a young boy, I’ve really dreamed of attending Wrestlemania. I know it’s a silly thing for that to be one of my aspirations, but I’ll always have fond memories of Pro Wrestling. In some ways it shaped my life, and I still to this day hope to get myself in shape, and hopefully become one myself. Silly I know, but hey, so are a lot of things in this world. It was such a great time that I’m going again in ’08. Already got the tickets and everything.
6. Magfe5t (High)
M4g was awesome. Ma6 will probably be even better. 5 was absolutely terrific though. I didn’t sleep from Wednesday morning until about Saturday late in the evening. It was fantastic. Those 70+ hours I spent awake were pure bliss. All the new people I met, and friends that were made. All the food that was eaten, and the drinks that were drank. All the chumps that were beaten, and the nerds that just stank. It was absolutely breathtaking in a way that some people may just never understand. I think of Magfest, and immediately Billy Joel’s “Times to Remember” pops into my head. The memories I’ll have for a lifetime, and the friends I’ll never forget, even if it is a bittersweet thing that it only lasts one weekend, and the rest of the year is spent in various flux states of happiness and sadness, with some content thrown in the middle, but I always know I’ll have Mag to look forward to. The only reason it’s so low on the list is because of PMD.
5. My recent realization of a romance that cannot be (Low)
Sometimes things just don’t work out. You can find something that should happen. Something that it seems was in fact constructed and brought to fruition by some higher power. But they don’t always work out. Liz seemed to be about as perfect as anyone was ever going to get for me. But it just wasn’t meant to be. I know that we’ll both always have a special place in our hearts for each other, but there are some things that just shouldn’t happen. The song “Challengers” by The New Pornographers paints a pretty good portrayal of this predicament. A love that should be, but cannot, because of the outside world and the constraints it lays upon those who live in it.
4. Katie (Low)
I spent basically the summer with Katie. She was great. Not without her flaws, but she was great. We had the grandest of times together. And we had perhaps the greatest first date I’ve ever had that wasn’t really a date. But I didn’t know that at the time. Except it kind of was. We did so much together. And it was all fantastic. But then came a warning flare, or as I saw it, a hint of what I was supposed to do. She in almost no uncertain terms told me that she had fallen for me, but she didn’t want me to act on anything romantic with her. I should’ve followed my gut instinct that night, and just given up. But I read too far into it. Romance ensued…and then fall came, and she went off to art school. And that’s what killed it. In one of the damnedest displays of priorities, Katie forgot all about me in favor of focusing completely on her art career. We haven’t talked since. The song “Smoke” by the Ben Folds Five is almost a perfect match for this. One of my saddest losses, but these are the kinds of things that help you grow as a person.
3. My Car (Low and High)
Talk about a heck of a way to start a new year. January 13th I flipped Alphazar, my ’04 Impala. It was totaled. And from the looks of that car I should be dead. But I came out of it with only a bruised knee. And all of this was in the wake of PMD. That was like, a double whammy. The song that best fit this was “Lux Aeterna” by Clint Mansell from “Requiem for a Dream.”
2. Audrey (Low)
This was probably the hardest time I had this year. It wasn’t Audrey alone, but a mixture of the heartache Audrey caused, school being back in session, all of my friends now away at school, and it kind of ruined what should’ve been a highspot of my year. The thing with Audrey was, she gave me the highest hope, and then just kind of left it alone, leaving me, in my paranoia caused by enough failed romances to write a novel based on, to make a damn fool of myself and drive her away. Although, it was really just caution on my part, and for some damn fool reason, it hurt her soooooo bad. But damn if she wasn’t the first girl I shed tears over. If I had to pick a song for that particular time this year, it would have to be “Evaporated” by the Ben Folds Five. But if there’s one line from a song that rings true, it’d have to be from “Brick”, by…The Ben Folds Five. “Now that I’ve found someone, I’m feeling more alone than I ever have before.”
1. Chromelodeon Final Really Big Show (High, with just the slightest low)
A weekend trip to Philly. A trip that I daresay gave me a brand new perspective of life. The people that I spent the weekend with were awesome. The things I learned were superb. And the weekend in and of itself was prodigious. A weekend of casting all worries aside. A weekend of camaraderie. Also, Naomi, but I wasn’t there for that, but apparently, she was amazing, except not. I can honestly say that this weekend was the best time I’ve ever had in my life. The grouping of people staying in that one small apartment like place was big enough that you could call it a mob, yet small enough that it was a very personal time. Everybody knew everybody, and we all talked, and everyone was included in everything. It was magical. Also, Philly Cheese Steaks. Can’t forget those. I don’t think words do that wonderful weekend justice. Bliss, in its purest form, perhaps. The only downside was how short the weekend seemed, the face that it was indeed Chromelodeon’s final show and then the lonely flight home. But those memories will stay with me until my dying day.
It was a year of highs and lows. A turbulent emotional rollercoaster of a year if you will. I laughed, I cried, I triumphed, and I failed. My heart filled with Joy, and my Heart filled with Ache. I did a lot of growing up. And I wouldn’t redo a moment of it. I’d relive it all. Without regret.